Learning that things were not really as I thought they were.

Day 17 of 21 days sharing drawings from my book, I AM ALIVE: Creating Resilience and Healing Trauma with Art published by Schilt Publishing, Amsterdam.

Text: Learning that things were not really as I thought they were.

When I drew this image, I had completed treatment a month earlier and was struggling with a very weakened body, PTSD, surgically induced menopause. It was at this time that I could not remember the names of friends: this showed me how overwhelmed my brain was. I found it difficult to fall asleep at night. I did not feel safe within my body.

As I went deeper into therapy, I discovered that I had told myself quite a different story to how things really were growing up. This time was an opportunity to turn up for myself in the most authentic way. I was so depleted that I could no longer be what others wanted me to be. I was over with people-pleasing. I began to be live my own truth. This was extremely challenging yet liberating at the same time.

Meditation: What is my truth?